As a working mom, I found myself struggling to meet the daily demands. I was coming home later than I wanted to because I was working 60-hour weeks as a litigation attorney. There were nights I only saw my kids because my husband brought them to my office with a couple pizzas. And worst of all, I felt rushed to get back to my work and barely enjoyed the opportunity to see them for that half hour.
Now, please know that I am a mom at heart! Being a mom is the single most important thing to me. I have wanted kids since I can remember, and I’ve always wanted a large family. The crazy part about my path in life is that I chose to become an attorney because I wanted to feel empowered to be able to own my own business and be in control of when and how many hours I worked.
After working my long, hectic workweek, I would come home to piles of laundry and chores, with very little time to enjoy my family. I was struggling. My marriage was struggling. In the lows I asked myself – was I depressed? Did I need to talk to a doctor? Or was I just wearing too many hats?
So, I did what most of us do and I reevaluated my priorities. I tried to cut out unnecessary stress, and I worked even harder. I thought if I put my nose to the grindstone, I could catch up, save some money and maybe switch careers. Unfortunately, that only left me more exhausted and unhappy.
At home, I did all the things – purging things we didn’t need, eliminating clutter, dreamt about hiring a maid, and begged my husband for more help. I felt trapped. Not because I wasn’t happy with my family life, but because I felt like I wasn’t really LIVING my life. It was more like someone else was driving my life and I was hanging on for dear life on the end of a rope, dragging behind the car, bouncing along through the dirt and gravel, trying to regain my footing.
Eventually, I turned to natural remedies and managed to find more energy & more emotional balance. It also helped us find a better lifestyle through wellness. We have learned to use food and natural substances to boost our immunity and have lived a physically healthier lifestyle. But that’s a story for another day.
Although I found an immense amount of relief with natural remedies, I ultimately felt trapped in the lifestyle I thought I was so wise to create. The self-motivated career I had built had begun to control my choices. The demands of the job led to eating out more because I was too tired to cook. Frankly, I was so exhausted that I didn’t even know how to find a way out. I didn’t have time to reevaluate our finances or find a new career. And on the salary of an attorney, I felt obligated to keep on going because our family was accustomed to the lifestyle we had.
I later realized that fear was the only thing keeping me where I was. My fears prevented me from doing anything unconventional. While we all have to be grown-ups at some point and do the hard work to pay our bills, I realized that I still had SOME control over the direction of my life.
In February of 2015, I made a small decision that would forever change my life. What started as a decision to embrace the natural lifestyle we had started to live, turned into a shift with my career path. With that decision, I was presented with an opportunity. And I realized I had SOME control over the direction of my life. I wasn’t happy with my job, so I took a leap of faith and changed my direction. I began to work from home. I started a side business. And the last 3 years have been the most terrifying, yet liberating thing I’ve ever experienced. Slowly – my life started changing.
At first, my side hustle started almost by accident (or perhaps by grand design). I was following my passion for a natural lifestyle and the business I now have developed very naturally. So, I fostered and supported the business – I figured even if it just paid for a portion of our expenses, it was one less hour I had to work litigating.
A year into my hobby business, the paycheck I received was enough to cover our car payment. A little over two years into playing with my hobby, we made our first mortgage payment. I was in complete disbelief. I realized that if I could be successful as a hobby to pay our mortgage, maybe I wasn’t as trapped working 60-hour weeks as I thought I was.
I now work about 50/50 between the two businesses. My husband has seen the transformation with our family. It’s amazing how choosing your own path changes your perspective on your life. We approach each day so much differently now. I even find enjoyment I had lost in my role as an attorney. Hence the term recovering attorney. I now handle almost exclusively appellate cases which I can work on during off-hours, which allows me to be present when I need to for my family.
As I look back on who I was 5 years ago, I realized that I had to share my journey. Because I know there are moms out there like me. I know that there are women who are struggling to find a path that will bring them more joy. Maybe they need emotional support from past trauma or bad experience, and they will benefit from my journey through natural living. Maybe they feel trapped and are missing out on the joy they should be experiencing with their little ones. Maybe you will enjoy the recipes I’ve devised to eat whole, healthy foods that even five little boys will eat (and on a budget). Or heck, maybe you’ll just find my journey amusing. Let’s be real – there are few dull days in my life. Five boys. That’s all I need to say! Ha!
What I do know is that if my story helps just ONE person, then this blog is worth the effort. I am excited to share my journey – from taking control of my house again, finding balance, finding the JOY in cooking again, regaining a sense of self (both through exercising again & also through a new career path), and finally, in being present in my children’s lives more. My goal is to empower you to take charge of your life. To find JOY. And to LIVE your life to the fullest!